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110910 SHINEE WORLD SG
Date: Saturday, September 10, 2011
Time: 11:43 PM x
First batch from the bottom.i swear uploading on blogger is such a B.                                            The pictures are actually alot larger in size, but my blog has disabled image clicking, so ill probably upload somewhere else (like tumblr) or maybe id zip it into a fie for dl. Fancams are for another day. cannot have to many Bs around x
if i should cry,
Date: Thursday, September 8, 2011
Time: 12:32 AM x
It just spilled over.I cried everything out. i had no idea ones body could feel much less hold on to so much pain. I even wanted to let her go, let God take her away. She once said in passing that when she died, i probably wouldnt cry... and i agree.. i wont.. i will miss you so much. And if i should cry, it would be of relief and happiness. that you can finally rest, and be happy. That no one can hurt you anymore, not me...not him...not those bitches... no one. x
I hope to change things.
Date: Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Time: 8:23 PM x
Today, i woke up*Got relieved of a responsibility that has been my 'creative block' *then i got hit by a wave of creative inspiration after the 'block' was lifted *touched up and printed my assignment *left the house late, missed a stop, but still got to class 10min early Good day! i am now more determined then ever to get my diploma and then get a permanent part time job. I dont know what job i will find and stick to, i certainly hope not to get office job, but i trust that God will send me the right one at the right time! (: Im excited and dying of curiosity to meet Ting on Thursday, it has to do with a job opportunity im not sure of the details. But at least i get to see this imp and maybe spend a day out with her \o/ Tomorrow marks the opening of This is Hyukgu's (hyukjae; Eunhyuk)first ever musical, and i am overly joyed and excited for him. He plays the role of a rapper, Tyron Jackson (Tyron Hyukson~~). And though i have searched up the But really, his first musical ^^ This is a big step for him in dabbling in other areas of the arts. And i know and hope that he will be happy with this opportunity (taxing schedule aside). There is no question that i really would rather be there to see his first Musical (and others hopefully with more opportunities for him). While i know i cannot be there, i have been feeling this urge to find someone who can be there, and would like to watch the musical, and bless them with a ticket. But i am in no position to be blessing others monetarily...yet. And i hope to change that. So jobs and the fire to work, come and stick by me (: i want many things, i want it by my own hand and effort. x
Look past the pain.
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Time: 1:49 AM x
I stopped blogging anything of substance since long ago.But since recently in a long time, my primary outlet for venting all my emotions have always been twitter. And ive only realised how much of my tweets have been so negative. I cant bring myself to find someone to talk it out, i dont trust enough, i get sensitive, i get hostile. I feel like ive forgotten how to smile and laugh without a but... or an if.... I am going to try and find something to be happy about everytime i feel affected. I want to count my blessings (: My life has gone downhill since a long way back, and it is still going downhill. I am just waiting to hit the very bottom, because when i do, there is no deeper to go and the only way is up. I have lost too much friends to lose anymore, but even still, i dont have that courage to hold onto those that are still around, around and ready to go. I dont have that many choices to pick and spill my troubles to, and even if i find one, i just cant...voice it out. I guess by bottling up so much, i gradually get more and more sensitive. I can be really happy, really mad, really jealous, really depress. There is no balance. I get really happy to be around these few friends i have left, and when things happen that threatens my happiness, my sensitivity is triggered, and i get really agitated and mad and lash out on this friend. And then i get overwhelm by guilt and put distance between us. So we slowly drift and ive lost another friend. But there are those who have been patient with me, who made an effort to show me that, hey they are still here, its ok, we're still good. These friends who in their own way touch me with their words and encouragement. These friends who still seek my company. While God is my powerline, these people are my portable charger. I thank God for them. I thank you for you. p/s: wow it works x
Birthday Haul !!
Date: Friday, May 20, 2011
Time: 4:07 AM x
Alright. I just turned 20 exactly 10 days ago. And since everyone has been fattening me up with lunch and dinner dates instead of actually giving me a physical gift.No aniticpation of tearing wrapping papers, no embarrassment from being sung birthday song, no swallowing of saliva to blow out candle carefully. But just so blessed with awesome food. (Not sarcasm here...ok just a little bit. But you guys no me right? ^^) So since i think ive saved up alot from meals for 1week. I think its ok to indulge myself in a little shopping haul from The Korean Gmarket (in English) Something that ive wanted to do in a very very long time. Always log in and nua nua around, filling up my shopping cart, but never checking out. T--T So FINALLY! I DID IT! Pictures of the haul! :  Everything was nicely packed. Fragile stuff like album, embossing machine and bag were boxed up. And im really grateful for the sellers' thoughtfullness in boxing up the Fuct Bag.  Non-fragile stuff like these leggings and pants were simply packed into plastics. 1. Striped Leggings 2. Color-Line Leggings 3. Leopard print Baggy Pants 4. Red patterned Leggings 5. Patterned Baggy Pants  The famous 'nichkhun bag', like seriously they do label it as "닉군백팩". Its my favourite buy \O/  It comes with a free gift, cute usb.   Embossing machine. Comes with hanggul characters. but is actually pretty useless since it cant actually form an actual hanggul word or character. i guess its just for the cute factor. How it works : I actually followed guides blogged by other Gmarket-ers. And their instructions are pretty clear and easy to understand. But this will show you what to expect after you've placed your orders, like actually made payment already.       fast right? :D x
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